Manoj Bajpayee has survived rejections, dejections and sneers to emerge as one of Indian cinema's most acclaimed actors. His bittersweet experiences in the industry have compelled him to stay on the fringe, but the fighter in him has no complaints
The ride has not been easy… it has taken a lot out of me, a lot of blood and sweat. I don’t wish for any other actor to be in my shoes at all: Manoj Bajpayee
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Manoj Bajpayee hasn’t forgotten that he was chucked out of three projects in a day. Instead of drowning in sorrow or cursing his luck, he chose to have a good time that evening. “I partied with three friends who could afford a bottle or two of rum. We made mutton curry and drank like a fish,” he recalls.
It was the early ’90s and Bajpayee, who hailed from a farming family in Bihar, was trying to make a mark in the Hindi film industry as an actor. Though he had a background in theatre, having performed in various plays in Delhi, he found it difficult to break through in an industry known to eulogise ‘stars’. In the absence of casting directors, aspiring actors had to go through numerous auditions and make multiple rounds of production houses to bag that elusive opportunity.
Many a times, the assistant directors would tear his photos in front of him as he didn’t look like a ‘typical hero’. There were days when he would be chosen for a part, tested before a director and then shown the door. Bajpayee, 53, however, took the humiliation on his chin. “It did not deter me one bit,” he says. “I have been a fighter since my childhood. I am stubborn and don’t give up easily. I feel all the traits I was born with came in handy when I was dealing with my miseries or failures. Giving up was never an option for me; it never felt like one because the passion was great, and the resolve was far higher and mightier.”
Almost 30 years since that struggle, Bajpayee is now regarded as one of Indian cinema’s most acclaimed actors with three National Awards to his credit. He’s had to pay a hefty price though. “It took a lot out of me. A lot of blood and sweat. The ride has not been easy and I don’t wish for any other actor to be in my shoes at all,” he says.
(This story appears in the 13 January, 2023 issue of Forbes India. To visit our Archives, click here.)